Hey hey! I'm back. Moving to a new country has so many ups and downs for me, but I am starting to relax a bit. I think I've relaxed about more than just adjusting to a new culture. I think I am relaxing as a Mom and just as a person. I feel like these past few months have been an intense unwinding for me- unwinding expectations I have put on my self and evaluating what I really care about. In essence I guess I have been letting go of what I think I "should" be and just being the "me" God made. I think this is most reflected in the rhythm of my day with my little ones. Here is the way our day is currently going:
Wake up and eat breakfast
A few morning chores (laundry, heating the milk we have delivered to make it safe, putting away any things that we missed putting away the day before)
Read a Bible story and page from "God's Wisdom for Little Girls"
Play outside for a few hours (Stephen is usually home for part of this, so he plays with the girls while I read my Bible and journal)
Morning snack (usually a piece of fruit and a handful of nuts)
Circle Time (movement songs, poems, finger plays, and ending with me telling a story)
Inside play (often blocks or play dough since Hope is happy with that too)
Lunch (made by our house help)
Then Hope goes down for a nap
When Hope is asleep, I do a crafty project with Jubilee
Then J lays down and listens to audio stories for 1 hour, and I read or craft
Both girls usually wake up around 3 and we have a little refreshing snack (like a Popsicle or some yogurt)
Then we do a baking project (baking bread, biscuits, cookies, etc)
Then outside we go; I bring along some dinner prep to work on like snapping beans or peeling vegetables (sometime the girls are involved, sometimes not) They often play "mud kitchen" at this point.
Then before dinner we vary- sometimes we walk to meet Stephen at his work, sometimes the girls take a bath (this always happens now if the girls have been cooking muddy things!)
What makes this rhythm better and different isn't really that I'm doing things very differently now, but that I am satisfied with doing this. I love it actually. I let go of the notion that I need to be doing more than this. I was made for this- for singing nursery rhymes and baking bread; or loving my kids and giving them a secure childhood. I let go of thinking that if I am going to be a full time mama that my kids should be able to do really impressive things to show for it (like knowing letters and the sounds they make, etc.) No, I don't need to care about impressing others or about achieving things. I can enjoy life and Father in simplicity everyday.